I was reading a friend’s blog where she was discussing the subject of needing that seperation from the world, the space for the vast role religion has in her life, and it was something I could very well relate to. When I was in the earlier day of my spiritual developement I would spend hours with various cds listening to what I thought was calming, introspective music. I think at one point I even had Gregorian chants that were given to me by a relative. My dream one day is to have a room set aside for my workspace. A room where I can paint (because this in itself is part of my devotional work to Apollon), and where I can research (so it will have an abundancy of shelves) and where I can have the quiet space needed for my worship. Just a space set aside that I can put on spiritual music, make my prayers and rituals, and focus in entirity with my god.
It is certainly not easy when you have a family. I have a husband and daughter both, and so I balance my spiritual life (which does take a considerable amount of my time) with my familial life, and in some cases (particularly with the festivals) it overlaps and joins together. Sometimes it means a little compromise, but I am fortunate to have a family that understands my quirks though they may not be quite overjoyed at it. I can spend the time in reflective prayer and meditation. When I am doing something more creative I am able to put down what I am doing and resume with little fuss. It is all about measuring and interweaving different components in my life. Certainly it can be easier, but this works for me. There isn’t a day that I don’t thank Apollon and Aphrodite for blessing me with my wonderful family and many thanks to Hera too.
Being a priestess I have found takes a high level of dedication to Apollon and is a part of all that I am and all that I do. My mother asks what makes me think I am qualified to call myself a priestess of Apollon, she asked if that is not false advertising. I told her because I am a priestess of Apollon. And my service to him is between him and I.